Emotions only ever occur in the present moment. The difference between choosing to be present and choosing to feel is just a matter of vocabulary. What is blocking you from being present to the moment? From feeling your feelings? Fear.
The awkwardness of stepping into emotion never seems to decrease or go away. Whether you consider yourself an emotionally mature person or not, it’s always risky to choose to feel. Fear is the great barrier between us and ourselves. Fear keeps us in our needless, wantless, expressionless, identity-less prisons.
The only thing fear is good for is for facing.